20101230

tag dari fizah

dear fizah, dah lame tak layan tag*walhal tak engat pernah layan ke tak*
tapi tiba tiba rase nak layan tag darimu ,FIZAH..terima kasih ehh :)

tempat yang paling aku nak pergi?
ehehe..haruslah SOUTH KOREA..bukan, sy bukan die-hard korea, cume die hard seorang pelajar di sana..maka nak pergi melawatlah.*tapi kalau jumpe lee min ho, best jugak[dreamy eyes]* tempoh rase nak pergi korea sangat cuma sampai dua ribu empat belas sebab lepas tu orang tu dah balik malaysia..teehee :D


3 perkara menarik tentang diri sendiri.

-positif sangat kadang kadang. ini gene dari mama,bersangka baik tu penting..tapi ternyata mama lebih positif lah..

-suke bercakap non stop dua puluh empat jam tolak less than dua belas jam untuk tido.

-suka tido..eheheh :D

tag kawankawan
sape sapelah nak buat.thee :D

p/s: kira kira hari nak sampai enam haribulan nak tunggu encik amin jejak kaki ke Malaysia ;D

20101030

seribu hari

its 1000 days
thankyou
MUHAMMAD AMIN BIN ZAINI :)
for being here*like virtually*

there are times we face difficulties
and there are times i wished i didn't hurt you
and there are times when i wanna cry because of you
there are times i cried cause i missed you that bad

whatever gonna happen
i just hope we are gonna make it through :)
selamat seribu hari :)

20100904

tidur berendam air mata

rindu
rindu sangat
kalaulah korea dengan malaysia boleh jalan kaki
:'(

20100903

minum nescafe tak boleh tidur ke pagi sakit kepala campur selsema

petang ni exam
damn
tatahu nak jawab ape
berdoa untuk yang terbaik
harap harap lulus

20100901

things =)

ehm.
mungkin i've changed
mungkin i am not a person yang me myself kenal

i succeeded meletakkan diri sendiri dalam a very complicated situation
yang me myself taknak do what is supposed to be done
reaching to a conclusion
biarlah time decides whatever happens next

hurm
tahniah kepada MAHIRAH DURALIM, yang akan fly ke Manipal Medical College, India =)
tahniah kepada ZARA kerana berjaya mendapat JPA =)
tahniah kepada AFIFAH kerana berjaya buat saya mengalirkan air mata tiap kali berjumpa
*walaupun bercerita di stesen bas teratai*

anyway, hari ni berjumpa seseorang yang seperti chipsmore dalam hidup
last time jumpe: mase cerita twilight ditayangkan
dah agak agak 2 tahunlah jugak
dalam 2 tahun, adelah dalam 5 kali je contact
harini contact dan terus dapat berjumpa.kebetulan.

normal comments dari orang yang dah lame tak berjumpa
a) asal muka tak cukup tido?
b) asal maken gelap?
ahhahaha
sorry, saya bukan budak comel putih macam cina macam mase baby dulu =P
okaylah.kena stop.notes dah panggil.


p/s:Jumaat ada progress test CNS
jam 2.30 petang
tak habis bace anat + physio lagi

20100816

how a friend can make you cry

ehm ehm =)

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK :D

tadi berbuka puasa dengan Afifah + Safwan
jealous jek tengok diorang
ish ish ish :P

anyway
lepas berbuka gi bilik fifah dan bergosip pelbagai
dari A ke B ke C ke D
sampai satu tahap
i cried
ehm..how easy a friend can make me cry
tanpa sedar masa bercerita tu, tercerita something yang jauh kat lubuk hati lah kononnya
tak pernah cakap kat orang laen kuat-kuat
sebab tu macam sedih sikit
bukan sikit, banyak sampai mengalirlaa jugak air mata
jadi, Afifah Azmi, anda bertanggungjawab atas air mata saya hari ini,oke? :)
thanks by the way
sebab dengar aku membebel2 sambil bace probability :P
and thankyou for makin' me realize thingSS i never realize before


another great news
my best friend
MAHIRAH DURALIM
will fly to manipal and do her MBBS there
alhamdulillah =)
you got what you want
therefore congratsssssssssssssss!!! :) and tak boleh maen maen sangat tau?

okay
tu je
esok pbl
signing out :D

20100813

rindu

finally
after 8 days
dapat berborak dengan amin
even for a short 10 mins on skype
yang wireless kat china macam tak berapa kuat so, banyak putus putus
tapi at least i get to listen to him

RINDU!

20100812

semangat anatomy




semangat sebab baru habes belajar osteology of the skull :D
first lecture note yang bace sampai habes untuk module CNS

ade 22 bones kat skull
8 cranial bones- frontal,parietal,occipital,temporal,sphenoid,ethmoid
14 facial bones- nasal,maxillae,mandible,zygomatic,lacrimal,vomer, inferior nasal conchae & palatines

bawak tu je dalam kepala untuk esuk punye practical buley tak?

20100811

hey soul sister =)

"kenapa awak degil sangat?"
hari hari duk fikir benda ni
tolong lah jangan degil sangat

hey :)

kawan - kawan

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan.
Semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna daripaa Ramadhan-Ramadhan sebelum ini =)

Kepada Encik Amin: Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa di negara China =)
waaa..seronoknya dia pergi China..jeles jeles jeles..ish ish ish

20100804

the ugly truth

i'm a SUPER DUPER messed up girl
who always messes things
and finally feel embarassed of what i've done

i'm a SUPER DUPER lame girl
who says things without even thinking
then realise
"how lame i sounded"

i'm a SUPER DUPER *overthinking* girl
who always thinks more than i should
and by overthinking
i meant in negative way
fikir bukan-bukan


i'm SUPER DUPER expressive girl
that i cannot feel hurt
without letting people know
i need to talk
i feel the need to tell people how i feel
but then of course
i`m SUPER DUPER lame
which then makes me feel lame by being expressive

i'm SUPER DUPER *ikut norma* girl
this one i have to explain panjang sikit
-_______-"
its like this

situasi A :
hari hari seorang kawan, B , akan senyum pada saya ketika berjumpa di toilet pada waktu pagi.tibe-tibe satu pagi, die tak senyum.otak saya akan puas memikirkan apa saya buat salah instead of menerima mungkin pagi tu die ngantuk sgt sbb stay up smpi tak mampu senyum. dan sampai lah kawan saya, B, berbual macam biasa.entah kenapa,hati saya jadi lega sangat and baru boleh cakap "oh, aku fikir bukan bukan sebenrnye"

situasi B:
hari hari dapat message goodmorning and goodnight. tibe tibe satu hari tak dapat.my otak will trus fikir "okay,maybe dah taknak message kot" then mulelah tersend message ade ala-ala touching di situ.pastu dah send, menyesal.bende, takde ape2 pun sebenarnye.tapi disebabkan my mind yang terlalu laju *refer overthinking statement* , maka i will sound tah pape and lame.-_-"

situasi C:
saya kawan dengan R. kawan saya pun kawan dengan R. dulu R cerita ape2 pun kat sy.tbe tbe die baek dengan kawan sy and cerite semua kat kawan saya. being used to norm and such an expressive girl, saya pun akan terasa tak diperlukan.dan of course lah, sy akan ckp kat R, tapi bukan kat kawan saya sebb my subtext/inner self/subconcious mind tahu apelah salahnye R tu kawan dgn kawan saya.saya tak kesah pun.tapi macam kene cakap gak tak puas hati tu.so, saya pun cakap kat R, R cakap kat kawan saya.kawan saya terasa dengan saya.therefore, saya akan menyesal being so expressive*especially when it is not needed*

-enough situations(there's a lot more!)-

i'm a SUPER DUPER kuat memori girl
macam contohnye, sepuluh tahun dulu, ade orang kate saya ni poyo
in deep of my mind
sampai harini, saya rase saya poyo
don't plant something in my mind if you dun mean it
cause seriously, i take that words seriously eventhough how many times you said you are only joking
i can't ignore what people say.i wish i could. :(
another thing
i could remember things i did wrong in past and try to "what if" every each possibilities in my head every single day
especially when i did wrong to someone i don't want to hurt their feelings
rasa bersalah tu takkan hilang samapi ages
and still i feel bad
its like a part of me dah kena tarik
its empty
i can put up strong face and jadi normal but i won't feel normal at all
sebab i cannot get rid of rase bersalah
*but this usually restricted to my closest friends*

and i am a SUPER DUPER self cautious about myself
hari hari i feel like i dun live up to people expectations
and i am not good enough to stand where i am today

therefore, i'm a SUPER DUPER messed up girl who lives by my thinking
i've tried to change tapi bab minda, mane bley tukar sgt pun
saya kena jadi LESS expressive and of course LESS overthinking
sometimes it hurts me more than it hurts anyone else
and kadang kadang being me hurts my people who i really really appreciate and loved sooo much more than it hurts me
yang tu yang saya cube nak elakkan

maka
to friends who may see, experience, encounter me
in these awkward, lame, overthinking, expressive, ikut norma, messed up girl
i am terribly sorry
and to the person which our relationship become dented because of my messedup-ness
i am really really really sorry
i wish i could put our relationship in hot boiled water and let it back to its shape as the pingpong ball :(

the conclusion is
i found the reason why i find myself sleeping in every lectures
because my mind is too busy thinking and exaggerating stuffs
dear beloved brain
please stop thinking way too much :)

p/s: the reason why i always says, "don't let me get used to you" is the ikut norm thingy. i dun want to be used to things as it may keep me attached to that one thing.

p/p/s or p/s/s: the person who sticks with me eventhough i am a freak in my own way are the ones who i highly appreciate and lovedd!.best friends, sisters, families and friends :)
not to forget encik amin bin zaini <3

20100802

:)

YEAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
cuti seminggu

i knoe, i knoe
baru sebulan masuk
apecer dah holiday?
nak wat cane
faculty dah bagi cuti mid kepada midsem
boleh? :)

anyway
setiap kali ade orang tanye
"kenapa korang cuti lak?"
saya menjawab
"sebab fac kitorang cool"

tapi
personally
i think this is not a holiday
this is a brilliant plan by the lecturers
to help us ready
dalam menghadapi next "MORE THAT TWO MONTHS" punye module
Central Nervous System

honestly, sekarang saya sudah nervous
-_______-"

next thing next
i had an AWESOMEEEE weekend :)

hari sabtu i went for Acting Saved My Life
and ade 2 speakers
ASHRAF SINCLAIR
*OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG*
and
Zahiril Azim, the one yg drug dealer in Kami series tu

from this course
i learnt to say out loud how i feel
and
set a goal
to really
Relax, Focus and Action
to stand and meet new people
and act like we've known for ages

by the way
thanks to Sazzy Falak
who take over after lunch session for a while
playing pretending
*which mase tu ashraf hug my shoulders.i nearly fainted.*

so, sape sape yang bace status
HOLD ME.I THINK I MAY BE FALLING FOR HIM.
you'll know who i was talking about
its ashraf sinclair
he is sooo gorgeous
saya jatuh cinta sama suami Bunga Cinta Lestari
-_________-

okay
stop salivating for ashraf
kita harus berpijak pada bumi nyata
well, the course was EXTREMELY beyond my expectation
and FUNNN tooo
cume macam rush sikit tyme zahiril azim
tapi it is very very very interesting
i can assure you
its a great experience :)

therefore, sebab terlalu teruja
saya telah mendaftarkan diri for another workshop
that is public speaking workshop
with JJ Hitz.FM
on january
i think it'll be fantastically interesting

i wanted to join Que, Lights, Action jugakk
tapi terlupa pulak nak sign up

I think acting workshops work for everyone
not only actors-wannabe
memetik kata kata ashraf
"Every each of us are acting in our own way on our own stage"

I AM STRONG-WILLED
:)


20100722

kit kat :)

i have had too many kitkat
maybe,just maybe
cutting off kitkat from my diet
will help a lot
maybe,just maybe
kitkat means less than i think it would be

20100701

break your heart

in a way, this song suits me

i am not heart breaker

but i always made people terasa, sedih, down because of me

so..yeah


Break Your Heart Lyrics


Woah Woah

Now listen to me baby
Before i love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Now listen to me baby
Before i love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Woah woah

Theres not point trying to hide it
No point trying to erase me
I know i got a problem
By doing this behavour

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)


20100506

berupdate tentang exam

officially,this is my first day of 2 months holidays
yeay!

after three days of throw all the mights to answer exam
three nights of improper sleeping
*on the floor with the notes all over the place*
three days of headache and emotional disturbance
which leads to cry for no reason
and feels that my head is compressed for again, an unknown reason

anyway
the exam was hard.and i dun expect myself to pass
tapi dalam usaha berdoa supaya mendapat keputusan yang terbaik

we have only 5 papers this semester
that are
structure-answered questions(SAQ), problem-based questions(PBQ), Multiple choice question(MCQ), OSPE&OSCE*it comes together* and also EMJ

we are answering the paper not according to subjects but these categories
and to answer ALL the papers*except EMJ*
we have to study
anatomy,physiology,biochemistry,pathology,microbiology,parasitology,pharmacology and PHPM
and all of them is divided by modules which are
cardiovascular,respiratory,gastrointestinal,urinary & endocrine and metabolism
we are given 3 weeks to study all these
this sure explains 3 days of improper sleep
Panda Eyes
stressed face


:)
but now it is over
we shall celebrate
and live the 2 months holidays
before being a second year medical student

goodbye firstyear :)

20100502

Friends-mOcca

to: all friends that have made a difference in my life.and make it better.and make me a stronger person each and every day.thankyou :)

Early Clinical Exposure

practising for my OSCE station during examination
well,who says being a doctor is all about books?
we also learn how to socialize and talk with patients :)
well,here it goes

BASIC RULES
*show empathy
*sit 45 degrees toward patient and keep a distance of knee length from the patient
*always,ALWAYS smile :)
*always look for any abnormalities/discomfort of the patient
*look into the eyes ^^

*knock,knock*
-Patient walks in
[shake hands with patients if possible]
Me: Hello :)
Patient: Hi :)
Me: Have you been waiting long outside?Have you taken your breakfast? :)
Patient: Not so long.Yes,I already did.
Me: I am Nur Syazmin bt Sies, a first year medical student of UiTM.The doctor currently with another patient.He asked me to take some details from you before he comes and meet you.Will that be alright with you? :)
Patient: Oh okay :)
Me: What is your name, and how can i address you?
Patient: My name is __________.You can call me _______.
Me: Can you tell me more about yourself?
Patient:_________________
Me: Well,_________, what brings you here today?
Patient: _____________________
Me: Oh,it must be a burden for you to come here today.Can you tell me more about your sickness?
Patient:^take note on the duration,the sites of pain(if any),the acute/chronic pain,the sensation of pain[also look at her eyes and around the body if there is any abnormalities]^
Me: Oh.I am sorry for you.It must be hard to have the sickness while working as a ______. Are you uncomfortable(If the patient looks uncomfortable)?Do you wish for me to slow down the air cond?
Patient: ____________________
Me: Do you take any medications to ease your illness?
Patient:________________
Me: Oh.Did they relieve you pain?
Patient:______________________
Me:Have you seen any doctor before you come here?
Patient:_________________
Me: Have you suffer from any illness before?
Patient:______________
Me: Have you been hospitalized or undergo a surgery before?
Patient:_______________
Me: Do you have any allergy, that is a reaction after you consume any foods or use any products, that cause irritation on your skin,itchiness or red spots?
Patient:__________________________
Me: Mind if I ask, but how are your parents?Are they well?
Patient:__________________________
Me: (If dead) I'm sorry to hear that.May I know the cause of the death?
Patient:_________________
Me: (If dead) Oh,I am sorry,again. :(
Me: What about your spouse and children?Are they healthy?
Patient:_____________________
Me:(If healthy) Oh, that's good :) (If sick) Have you bring them to the doctor?
Patient:__________________
Me: The questions i will ask after this may be sensitive,but it is important information.May I?
Patient:____________
Me: Do you smoke cigarettes or have any history of smoking?
Patient:____________________
Me: (If smoke) Oh, how many cigarettes did you usually take in a day? (if don't) That's good.Smoke can damage your health.
Patient:_______________
Me: (If smoke) Oh, that is a lot.You should try to lessen it because smoke is dangerous for health.
Me:Again, a sensitive question, Do you drink alcohols, such as, beer,wine or whiskey?
Patient:___________________
Me:(If Drink) How much did you drink in a day? (If not) Oh.Okay.
Patient:__________________
Me: Another sensitive question, do you take drugs for leisure such as cocaine or marijuana?
Patient:____________________
Me:(If don't) Oh,that's great.
Me: Do you have any idea regarding your sickness?
Patient:_______________________
Me: Can you tell me more about your idea?
Me: Oh,we will try our best to identify you illness and provides you the best treatment we could.
Me: Do you have any worries about your illness?
Patient:____________________________________
Me: Don't worry.You have come to the right place.The doctor will do his best to help you.
Patient: :)
Me: What do you expect from the doctor?
Patient:____________________________
Me: Alright, I will tell the doctor so that,he can help you as much as he could :)
Me: Now,May I repeat all the information you've given?Feel free to add in anything.
Me: _________________________________________
Patient: :)
Me: Alright.Thank you, _________.I will pass this information to the doctor and he will meet you shortly.I do hope you will get well soon :)
Patient: :)


All of these within 8 minutes.I didn't make it last semester.Hope I will make it this semester.
Well, doctors are taught all these nowadays to ensure that their communication skills will be awesome and being able to do history taking without any miscommunication.I sure hope to be a good doctor,5 years ahead :)

20100501

short and sweet

no it is not me
i am not short
(is 157 cm short?)

it is about the post today

the sentences of the day
"I'll work hard, till the last minute of the day before exam(which is monday).Please, at least,let me pass.no flying colours wanted.just a pass"

Terima kasih Muzammel :)

7 perkara yang ada dalam jiwa raga aku.

1. Aku suka nak bedah orang.aku aim nak jadi pakar bedah.lagi berpuluh tahun :)
2. Teringin nak pergi korea,melawat amin di sana.dan berdoa dipertemukan dengan lee min ho :P
3. Kalau ada duit lebey tahun ni,nak beli dslr ataupun canon s90 pun cukuplah :)
4. Aku tak reti nak luahkan perasaan*masa nangis* kat orang yang aku tak percaya separuh hati aku paling kurang. :(
5. Aku tak reti mintak maaf depan depan.ayat aku lagi buleh pakai dalam mesej rather than cakap.
6. Aku kurang minat orang yang tak reti nak ikut planning,ubah plan suka hati.
7. Aku suke senyum sopan kat stranger.lepas senyum,aku tunduk.entah apa perangai entah.

Tag ini diberikan kepada:
sesiapa yang sedang membaca :)

it is just a thought :)

sometimes we thought we knew that person
then
in a blink of an eye
they turn into someone we cannot relate anymore
are they changing?
or is it me who turn into someone else?

well
nowadays i am a bit sensitive and quiet
*in my own way of course*
not that i want to be ignorant
i just want to avoid myself from speaking bad of others
and hurt someone's feeling
i even typed less messages than i ever did since i own a handphone
i even ignored messages from one of my really really really great supporter in life
*you knew who you are*
"i am really really sorry
i just need a space
i am doing a lot of thinking
i am not purposely ignoring you because i don't want us to be friends"

life is like a wheel,they said
sometimes we are above
and sometimes we are at the bottom

i shall not know is this the above of bottom
because even though i think this is bad
the MAN up there may plan something better years ahead
as a consequences of today's challenge

semalam ada solat hajat perdana fakulti
solat disebelah sarah
kata-kata dari sarah yang dipetik dari kata kata kak syu
"bila kita terdetik nak buat sesuatu kebaikan, terus lakukan waktu tu, kerana hidayah Allah boleh hilang apabila kita sengaja melewat-lewatkannya"

maybe it is already time for me
to change into someone new
hope the following holiday will help me
Insya-ALLAH

plus, kudos to the my fom@solat hajat perdana crews
the solat hajat was a great experience
especially the makan dalam dulang :)
i had fun
and dr.adli had touched an untouched part of my heart
maybe,just maybe
i'll turn into a new leaf
not too different from who i am
just a better muslim
InsyaALLAH